i made a new friend today. lalo. he's really really cool.
6th hour today rocked. mostly because i don't have a 6th hour. so lauren and i just ran around school. 'twas awesome.
swim practice was gay and hard. i can't walk funny. lauren and i are going to tell people we met 2 25-year-olds and told them to get on their back and lets make it happen.
if i were to gaze at the stars from my rooftop during a rainstorm would i see you? of course i would. i see you in everytihng i haven't spoke to you in over a month. i feel like i am dying. its complicated the feelings i have for you. you know what..
this will probobly be the most emotional entry in the history of el jay. i see people posting in my journal and people who have added me as their 'friend' but i don't feel that it is real. I am losing touch with most all of my former friends. not just because i am in new mexico, but there are other sides of people who are starting to come out that i don't neccissarily want to be a part of. Friends that i used to be so close with are now finding different focuses in their lives that aren't the right choices. i feel that i am a pretty impressionable person and that if i continue to affiliate myself with these people i will royally fuck up my life, as they are. i cannot tell who are really friends now or if they are being 'real.' i was looking forward to the italy trip in october with 2 of my good friends but now those 2 people who i care about so much aren't who they used to be. i don't know if it is really worth going if i won't be with those people that i loved so much. that trip is the only thing that is keeping me in chandler.
yo. it's taken me over 30 minutes to get to this page so i can update. this computer is slow as hell. but i guess it's better than nothing right?! i just wanna say that i love and miss everyone in arizona. thanks kirby for filling my job. until i get back, you're the boss. we'll be partners when i return.
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